It has been a while once more. It seems that time has somehow slipped away from me. My class loads were not enabling me to be social online at all. I remember junior year of college I only got around 3 or 4 hours of sleep on average. Hard times, but good times. I don't even know what to say or how I can put these last 4 yrs or so down in one short journal. Here is the short version

I went to college for nursing, passed all my classes, graduated, moved to a small town in ND and am working in a hospital. There are a few other things mixed in there with relationships and other worries or concerns… but I shall try and let the worries and concerns rest in the past…

it's kind of funny. I was looking back in my journal and there was one day I had written "this was the worst weekend of my life, but you don't have to remember it " and I don't have a clue what I had written. I suppose it is nice that my memory doesn't work sometimes. Like my mom always used to say "it's never to late to have a happy childhood."

My life right now is going fairly well. I am enjoying my job. I also enjoy the fact that I am able to get a full nights rest. The only trouble is I am far away from the people I know and love. True, I do only live about an hour from 8 of my friends… but an hour seems like a long way when you used to share an apartment with three of them. I spoke with my cousin about what she did when she moved to a place where she didn't know anyone. She had moved to California and did not know anyone in the entire state. She said the first 6 months she would go to work, run, watch tv, sleep, go to work, run… and so on. I suppose I'm not too worried. She eventually met people, fell in love and got married. The only difference is she lived in a city with a population 100 times bigger than where I'm living… small difference, right?

Working as a nurse is amazing. I am working in a small hospital which means I get to do EVERYTHING. We mix IV medications (like vancomycin), and we get to do things respiratory therapists usually do. I will be trained in on all the units so I can work in the ER, surgery, the swingbed, and med-surg unit. Initially I did want to remain in a bigger town; however, this hospital will give me a much better experience for when I go out to do mission work. It makes me excited.

That's all for now… I don't know if I will be able to dig more of my creative side up again. If so I will be around… and if not I would like to tell all of you that I am grateful for this site and for each of you. During the harder parts of my semesters I would go online and look and pictures and poems… I would never say anything (sorry, I didn't have too much time), but some of those pieces of art are what got me through to the next day… I am glad that there are some things that I don't forget. thank you from the bottom of my heart.
~Beams
Dawn~